We went to the doctor yesterday for our regular follow up. Tomorrow I’ll be 29 weeks and I can’t believe how quick the time has come. The fluid is almost completely gone. I told the doctor I can only feel him on one side and he said with our situation that is normal considering there is almost no fluid. He also explained that I should be feeling him move less and not to worry. This makes me sad, I want to be able to feel him move all the time. Other then that everything looked really normal. He had a strong heart beat <3 and everything was measuring normal on him with the exception of his belly which was about two weeks ahead. He also said that he was a pretty large baby… just like his dad! A mini Kendrick :)
I thought of you and closed my eyes, And prayed to God today. I asked what makes a Mother, And I know I heard him say: A mother has a baby, This we know is true. But, God, can you be a mother, When your baby’s not with you? Yes, you can he replied, With confidence in his voice. I give many women babies, When they leave is not their choice. Some I send for a lifetime, And others for a day. And some I send to feel your womb, But there's no need to stay. I just don’t understand this God, I want my baby here. He took a breath and cleared his throat, And then I saw a tear. I wish that I could show you, What your child is doing today, If you could see your child smile, With other children who say: We go to earth and learn our lessons, Of love and life and fear. My mommy loved me oh so much, I got to come straight here. I feel so lucky to have a mom, Who had so much love for me. I learned my lessons very quickly, My mommy set me free. I miss my mommy oh so much, But I visit her each day. When she goes to sleep, On her pillow’s where I lay. I stroke her hair and kiss her cheek, And whisper in her ear. “Mommy don’t be sad today, I’m your baby and I’m here.” So you see my dear sweet one, Your children are Ok. Your babies are here in My home, They’ll be at heavens gate for you. So now you see what makes a mother. It’s the feeling in your heart. It’s the love you had so much of, Right from the very start. Though some on earth may not realize you are a mother, until their time is done. They’ll be up here with Me one day, And you’ll know that you’re the best one!
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